8:22 AM @
Saturday, February 6, 2010
assalamu'alaikum!
peace be upon you!
ALHAMDULLILAH =))
wow, this blog is SUPERRR abandoned!
and SO MANY THINGS have happened to me over the time period when i stopped blogging. i dont know why suddenly i feel so itchy (gatal) i want to blog today. haha prolly cz im not ready yet to start on my work. but it's like 1224am already haha but i really REALLY do have to finish up those readings. ah wells.
woww. from the time ive entered my last post to now, masyaAllah, so many things! i wouldnt have imagined i would be doing the things im/ill be doing =)
alhamdullilah yeah! i did go for my backpacking trip in india over the dec vacation! and it was superrr wowww, haha i learnt so many things about my friends, and my eyes were opened so much to the realities of life, and we saw the REAL india, not the tourist india, and you realy gotta derive the beauty from the mess/chaos you see there. nonetheless, despite the fact that 5/6 of us fell sick there, i really did ENJOY my time =)) so thanks for the memories and companionship (alphabetical order!):
CHAOS, HAZI, MAI, RENA_WONG, TK =)) ah wells, i love these ppl man, so awesome =)
academics! alhamdullilah i managed to do well last sem. kinda worried abt this sem cuz im so packed with so many things and im so afraid i wont be able to maintain my cap, like ive already skipped 2 lessons (HAHA) oh noo and usp astrophysics is like CRAZYY, so physic-ish! and i missed one tutorial for that, and i know i may sound like super geek but reallyyyyy. haha and i dont get to spend so much time in lib anymore too, haha and i go home late from mon-thurs and fri once in 2 weeks and my saturdays are often taken up till late afternoon. BUT oh wells, alhamdullilah, im enjoying myself and insyaAllah things will work, and haha sorry for the superrr whiny wani =))
SILAT, hee, i really love the seni training. not because it's less rigorous (or maybe partly) haha but learning and practising the steps are kinda, well, if you wanna say, addictive, in a way. haha (gilerr nyer wani) haha BUT i need to get more stamina and my weight needs to stop oscillating, hahahaha, i lost nearly 2kg over a few days! it's CRAZY. but silat is fun, im gonna miss trainings when i go off during the recess week, and WHEN insyaAllah, i go for my stuff next sem. let's see how it goes.
and talking abt it, i realised ill MISS so many things if i do decide to spend my next sem out of singapore. BECAUSE ill miss SILAT. and ill totally MISS MY FAMILY. and ill MISS my friends!! and goodness, i was just thinking abt it just now, and i realised, wow, i may make so many plans but it's kinda nervewrecking in a way. haha but i was thinking also, it'll make me independent right! and it's great to have these kinda experience, insyaAllah. we'll see how it goes.
my mom and my abang are getting very worried that im not attached/have a boyfriend. honestly, im not worried nor am i very concerned about it... for now? haha i dont know, these things, they just happen right? anddd i wanna do so many things in life, esp. when im still an undergrad, and when you think abt it, i really REALLY do need someone who will be supportive of ALL my actions/ideas and can tahan/sabar with me. haha but see, THAT'S exactly why my abang & mom think i wont get attached- im too busy for my own good. BUT haha i dont know if i can help it, or if i cant. but i like the things im doing, and for now, till maybe when there's someone, i dont have to worry abt it, haha. im happy being me, alhamdullilah =)
anwwws, i MISS apex, i MISS my SEMESTER 1. like truthfully, HONESTLY speaking. BUT, ive made many new and AWESOME friends this sem, like stephanie! and although some things i go for, are like, macam cekik darah, kena banyak banyak istighfar and sabar, these ppl just help to make it much better, alhamdullilah =))
i WANNA do so many things. and stephanie got me PERSUASION (by jane austen!). she's soo sweet!
and on the negative side, im afraid about some matters. BUT i really do try not to think about it, although i DO try to do something about it. ah wells, insyaAllah nothing bad will happen.
AND my saturdays! no more tuition, haha cuz theyre all on weekdays, so now i can relax and not RUSH around after training. it's sucha nice feeling. and tmr! we're gonna fly kite, hee hahahaha for some reason, im SO EXCITED to finally get a break doing fun things (although technically, i have a presentation to prepare for and midterm test next week). haha, but i dont think itll hurt to just spend a few hours out playing =)
andd im TIRED, sometimes. i try to not think abt it, but sometimes (or maybe ALL THE TIME/MOST OF THE TIME), i dont wanna get out of bed and do my work. i think im working myself too much but well, i DO like the things im doing. i should take a break and take care of myself!
AND, ive finally decided to do good things, LIKE drinking MILK once in a few days at least! so that i wont get injured so easily! hahahaha, it's something i wont do(or i'll only drink it very rarely), but i dont wanna get injured anymore cuz injury=missing trainings, haha so yeah.
and it's GREAT to hear from my old friends, or even to talk awhile to them. like PRIS GOH, JOSEPH, MIN ZHI, WEN YI, APOORV, MEHUL, BEN and the list goes on. haha i really do miss my uwct class too =((
ANDDD woww, i dont think i can stop blogging. haha i love classics. i bought like tolstoy's book andd i wanted austen's mansfield park too! here! i'd like to thank HASLINA for tagging along with me at bras basah! i know it's SUPER hard and undeniably, exhausting, when youre out with wani looking for books. haha but THANKS so much for your patience and understanding =))
wheeee, other than that, i shld stop! haha but whenever i think abt persuasion, id think abt lakehouse. it has very close connections! esp. in this dialogue from the lakehouse (ah yeah, i memorised it. im CRAZY abt lakehouse. SUPER sweet and sooo THOUGHT-PROVOKING. and it's sandra bullock and keanu reeves tgt! =)) )
alex (keanu reeves): what about persuasion? you told me they wait, they meet again, they get another chance.
kate (sandra bullock): life is not a book alex, and it can be over in just a second. i was having lunch with my mother at daily plaza, and a man was killed right in front of me. he died in my arms. and i thought, it cant end just like that on valentine's day. and i thought about all the people, sitting at home, waiting for him. and i thought, what if there is no one? what if you spend your whole life waiting, and no one's waiting for you?
so i drove to the lakehouse, looking for any kind of answer, and i found you. and i got lost, lost in this beautiful fantasy where time stood still. but it's not real alex. i've got to live the life that i have got. please dont write anymore. dont try to find me. let me let you go.yeapp, beautiful, isnt it? haha i shouldnt quote pride and prejudice here, when darcy confessed to elizabeth,
"you must allow me to tell you how ardently i admire and love you."and then he made the mistake of telling her how falling for her goes against societal standards and blabla, haha i love austen's novels, esp. this one =))
okay! im a HISTORY student, haha but i love classics, esp. austen's! =)
OK DAH. i must END here before i start blabbing about other things. hahaha it's sucha nice form of escapism from work, blogging, that is =)
alhamdullilah! gnights and happy weeekend everyone, insyaAllah! =))
wassalam,
wani
