7:53 AM @
Monday, December 31, 2007
Assalamu'alaikum,
Peace be upon you (:
hello world!
haha alright, so let's do a review/recap of the year :D
and disclaimer, it's gonna be a longg and well, a long entry,
honestly, really, serious, frankly, im not lying to you,
so if you dont wanna get bored,
uh you can just skip this entry, or well, haha just be patient (:
phrase of the year (:
anw, yes it's in Malay and abit the jiwang,
but haha it's meaningful, so bear with it, haha:
yang pertama belum tentu yang terbaik,
yang terbaik biasanya yang terakhir.
tetapi yang sukar dilupakan adalah yang pertama.
sedangkan yang terakhir masih menjadi tanda-tanya.yes, dad said 'if someone breaks your heart, dont cry' (:
haha okay, so im still running this public blog,
uh haha yes, months after i decided t well, privatise my previous blog,
which is well, sorry t say, but exclusive to only a few people nods,
cuz of certain reasons like, well, feelings and haha,
andd yes tis blog is mainly for my rants and views and normal words in short,
buuut somehow, if you do get access to it, and somehow, able t crack my password,
haha i'll say, you know me well enough (:
haha alright,
some important self discoveries made this year,
uhm haha wait, i gotta think.
alright, people say i should smile always,
or else ill look as if im sad,
so yes haha i'll try smiling all the time la aite!
Insya-Allah (:
haha yup,
and when i'm pretty quiet or i dont really talk t you,
it's either:
1. i really have nothing t say or 2. i really enjoy your company,
orr i really dont know what t say orr im tired/stone,
orr there's something really bothering me and im thinking,
or actually, i just prefer and like t listen t the conversation, haha
uhhuh (:
other than that,
i realised that having a strong willpower is very vital and thus,
if i am aiming for something, it's mind over body and yes strong willpower,
i know it's like well, duh Wani, but i guess as you grow older,
things like this seems to really hit you,
and that, that has played a part, alot, this year,
yup.
and i love my space, i mean i dont need it always,
but i guess there are times when i just lapse into uh my own world,
and im really gonna emphasise that it's really not emo-ing,
nor am i antisocial, haha far from that,
i dont really mind being surrounded by ppl when im in that mood,
just as long as ppl dont mind and dont think that there's something wrong with me,
it's just well, some time when i like t spend some quiet time,haha,
and just, space out or look at the skies, read a book,
and ive learnt that, no i shouldnt do that when there're ppl ard,
cuz well, it gives the wrong impression,
i guess it's just appreciating the wonders that God has created,
especially the skies, it makes me feel, carefree yes (:
the dark night sky too, stargazing :D
ive found a favourite place in school and i can tell u no, it's not the library,
haha but well, i guess i wont say where it is anyway though,
haha WANIII!
but yes, it's a very very nice and good place, Alhamdullilah (:
andd my birthday this year, haha yup 234 :D
well, basically 23rd April, haha yeap,
i got a really nice and sweet gift from my Melayu ppl,
haha ohh, they pretended as if they didnt get me anything till lunch,
haha and in the morn, the first gift i got in nj was from Aloysius,
haha yeap, and thanks, it's still hanging in my room (:
but yes, haha getting back on that,
we finished eating already and Syaf/Ain passed me a box and haha,
well, cut story short, they got me like a book for me t fill with my sajak and puisi,
andd cards! hahaha yes, love them bits n pieces, really sweet,
and haha, ill look at Ain and Syaf as i rmb one of them,
hahaha gosh, that was like well, months ago, but thanks!
yes yes, rmb mj? (:
andd oh there's such a thing as Singles' Day and it falls on the 25th of April,
so hahaha i'll like celebrate it next year, haha!
but Zul, being a good and nice friend as he is,
told me i'll find another single and be a double,
haha but well, im not fussed, andd im just kidding (:
but hey, there's such a thing really as singles' day,
haha yup and yes it falls on the 25th,
and unless i get off from this point, im just gonna be repeating myself,
haha
but anw,
let's see,
i got into NJC, well yes obviously,
haha yes it was a last minute decision, nods.
was at Arfah's house for sleepover on the day before the submission for PAE was due,
when i received my mam's msg telling me it's up t me t decide,
cuz she read my testimonials which well, made her positively proud,
andd haha yeah when i reached home the next day,
put NJ first choice when for some time,
i was so decided on AC cuz well, it was near and i didnt expect my results t be good,
but yup Alhamdullilah (:
and so my jc journey started,
andd well my first three months in NJC was super awesome,
Alhamdullilah, i really love my stay here,
orientation was super fun haha like uh 8 days of it,
yes first 3 days were like talks and admin stuff,
but the next week of whole 5 days were games and fun,
and yes i admit, at that time, i wanted normal lessons t start soon,
hahahaha.
alright :D
but hey, haha im no mugger,
and okay tis is the part that im gonna stand up for nj,
that it's not a mugger school,
haha i think partly the reason why ppl think we are,
is because we are seen studying buuut,
it's only when exams are coming or there are tests,
and most of the year are spent on activities,
that when you have that spare time, you just gotta catch up on work,
but well, it doesnt really matter what we are branded,
cuz afterall, you study t get good grades,
and somehow, no matter how you argue that grades are not everything,
well, they are something in this globalised world and Singapore,
if you wanna be somebody in the future.
yup,
and well haha this year,
made the big switch from band to angklung (:
haha alright, some were in disbelief when i told them i quit band,
and yes disappointments and all but i cant blame them,
but i dont regret the switch either.
i mean, yes, ive been in band since primary 2 so that sums up t uh, 8 years?
it's not a waste quitting band, i get t try something new.
and yup, partly the reason why i quit was because,
it wasnt like Crescent's band, and well im really attached t CGGSB,
and the style is well, different so yup,
and also cuz, alright i can be blamed for this,
but i was frustrated with myself cuz i couldnt get my sound back,
yup my polished trumpet sound which i had worked on for years.
i guess if i had been patient i would have gotten it back,
but well, i guess it's just that i didnt really wanna be in band anymore,
and no there's really nothing wrong with nj band,
they sound really good (:
but anyway!
i love angklung ensemble :D
i wont deny there was a kinda uh, culture shock,
but it's not a negative thing, haha yup, good thing,
i guess through this, i've begun t appreciate ethnic music,
and haha alright, have picked up rebana and bamboo flute,
yupyup, grow more synapses!
thenn competitions!
haha first 3 months, pesta pantun with Asyikeen, Hafidh, me and yes Syamil,
haha it was fun and well, we stayed behind in school till malam usually for practices,
and that was how i got t know Khairiana,
haha yup andd well, we didnt get thru the prelims,
but getting more exposure was really good and it was well, enjoyable (:
an experience!
and of course,
bahas bahas and bahas :D
i love my bahas team mates :D
haha alright so i was interested in joining bahas,
so got the go from cikgu and put together our bahas team,
got Faris in, and yup there were probs of forming a team,
but managed t get Zul, haha yeah and he insisted on being a reserve if he was t join,
so i had t abandon my wish of being a reserve instead,
then got Hafidh in and then yes, Daniel was interested,
so yup the 5 of us :D
haha yeap if you've noticed, i was the only girl on the team,
but haha no issue really.
prelims, quarters, semis andd yes FINAL (:
Alhamdullilah, guess we didnt really expect t get all the way there,
the aim was t get t the next stage after each stage,
and yes step by step, we got there, and we were a team,
and yes Zul, i still insist that you are on the team,
like team manager like that, haha yup!
practices, practices and yup,
we bonded aite all, and they were really good memories, nods,
and we came out on tv! hahaha, yes the post-final interview,
and Faris represented Singapore for Titian Minda,
and we got $1000 cheque for being runner up,
yup i mean we lost t Madrasah Al-Maarif during the final,
but really, really felt like we were winners,
and that's what that matters right? haha yup!
it was the whole process really, the thrill, the bahas,
and i seriously think we did awesome,
and i thought that my best performance was during the final,
but when i watched the video again, haha i could've done better la,
but anw, haha yes it's still on arenabahas website (:
andd of course, drama!
haha alright, it wasnt always a smooth ride but well,
we did get rave reviews, Alhamdullilah,
especially for our merisik scene kann! hahaha :D
me, Ain, Syamil and Zul were on the scene andd haha we love our scene,
Zul was my 'husband' aka Wak Lan andd i was Mak Bedah haha,
andd Ain was awesome being Kak Ros with Syamil as her 'husband' aka Khamis Bin Jumaat,
and yes Zul had t dangdut hahaha!
and drama overall was good but let's make next year's one better aite!
Insya-Allah (:
and yes, haha the iftar session (:
hahaha it was so super fun, especially the post iftar :D
alright, so i managed t bargain for the food t be paid with MLDDS fund,
so we invited school teachers and yup, Mrs Cheng came,
and ordered food from cikgu Mazalan's kakak, so costs wasnt bad, Alhamdullilah (:
haha food food thenn after iftar,
we jemaah Isyak tgt outside the Melayu room,
thenn haha we played takraw andd i was so cmi, and it was so hilarious,
cuz the ball flew out of the level and down and down t the ground floor,
and they tried t throw it back to the place, haha nehmine,
words cant really describe it haha yup,
but we stayed in school pretty late andd raced to the side gate cuz it was closing,
haha thanks Uncle! :D
andd yes, Melayu room, haha okay la technically it's all the 4 LDs room,
but since we use it most, it just got called Melayu room,
and haha it's been a good place, Alhamdullilah, t take a rest,
and yes, take a nap, haha (:
but aside from that,
ive made and met many good people and friends (:
haha alright,
let's see, besides my a01 mates, pae and jae, angklung,
of course, the Melayu ppl (:
haha alright, Alhamdullilah, good t know,
aite! haha the first time i met Zul, Faris and Azrin were like,
first 3 months, haha,
outside the LD room cuz we wanted t solat,
then i couldnt open the door and tried opening,
but it couldnt open,
then the 3 of them came down also and haha we still couldnt open it,
so decided t go for lesson first and we intro ourselves,
then yes Faris got my number so that he can call me when the room's open,
and haha that was how the 4 of us met first.
andd then, Syaf too! haha remembered the times we hanged out in Malay room,
cuz Faris and Syaf were trying out for talent time,
so yup haha practices there and it was fun and yes carefree (:
and that was the time when i havent taken sastera Melayu,
and i was still on English lit. nod nod.
thenn yup came jae, Ain joined us and i wasnt the only Malay in arts anymore, haha,
Alhamdullilah (:
and yes, haha Melayu ppl started hanging out tgt,
and yup, it's lasted till noww and haha it's always that table or that table or that table,
and yes it got branded the Malay table, haha (:
andd our first movie tgt was uh, the simpsons at Lido!
haha yes i wanted t watch Harry Potter but it wasnt showing anymore,
so yup had t settle for another andd me, Ain, Azrin andd Syamil watched the movie,
while Syaf and Zul, haha, yes they spent quality time tgt (:
and yup, ive found the few people i could really confide in, in nj,
Ain, Syaf, Zai, Zul (: Alhamdullilah.
haha yes so well, they gotta stick with all my rants, and no, no gossips,
haha aite!
Syaf and Ain, uh takyah cakap la, haha,
and Zai's like my guy best friend haha,
and well, Zul got t know bout it first after bahas final,
so yup, the 4 of them are mostly updated bout well, anything, haha (:
andd oh, of course, Syaf and Zul got tgt around June there,
haha yes during our bahas compt, around that time,
and it was pretty hilarious la now that you think of it,
aite sorry ahh both of you,
but anw when we have meetings/pracs,
i'll be like arriving, well usually on time or earlier,
then they'll be like there already or something like that,
andd haha i had t resort t stuffing my ears with music on pretty much loud volume,
so that i dont have t overhear them talking about whatver stuff they have t say,
but well, haha found out about it after our quarters,
and yup theyve gone thru ups and downs and yes sweet sweet,
hahaha alright, reason why im so sentimental bout this is cuz!
hahaha yes im their future planner :D
haha alright alright, and im gonna get front row seats when they u know what in ten years t come,
andd if i still cant find someone by that time, and i mean by a man,
i'll find one during their majlis and theyll help me out,
ahaha cuz i wanna get married by 26/27 so ten years down, oh no, ill be 28,
hahahahaha okay, but as Syaf pointed out t me,
when i do find someone there, the process of getting t know each other and all and all,
it'll take time so haha, but still,
it makes good for joking, nods.
and maybe we can be neighbours too! haha (:
Punggol 21+ is very interesting yup!
haha alright, so enough of their love life,
sorry aite (:
haha alright, nods.
so well, he came along around that time too,
yup around the half of the year and well nods.
i mean, nothing happened, it was neither here nor there,
but well, there were good memories,
and no, im not gonna blame him for anything really, haha,
it was a well, difficult situation, with the end product kinda expected,
but i've learnt certain things though, Alhamdullilah,
like well, not t expect more than what you can expect,
and appreciate the beauty of life (:
and the principle that love is not a compromise,
i fully appreciated that,
and yup, im really good and honestly, i got over him well enough,
haha yup trust me, i dont lie, really i dont (:
and so for now, haha i guess i'll wait for that someone,
but if by the time im 26 andd he doesnt appear,
uhh haha ill start looking for him, hahahahaha, alright Wani (:
i'll still stick with responsible, pleasant, nice, religious, humorous and yes, family man for my ideal guy (:
but again, Ain, Syaf and Zul being good friends,Alhamdullilah (:
well u can expect what they said la,
andd Zul well, he pointed out that the end product wont be the same again,
cuz of the situation, yup, but yup, im good,
and Insya-Allah ill be good (:
well, and enuff of that, andd haha those are for the other blog,
but well anw, this is a really long entry,
so if you've read till here, i'll say, THANK YOU (:
oh well, let's go t studies and studies,
common test and promos results were satisfactory,
managed t get and keep my h3 history, Alhamdullilah really (:
andd haha i decided t drop English lit so that i can take Malay lit,
and reason was partly because, i didnt wanna not do any mother tongue subject,cuz i didnt have t take Malay anymore,
so made that decision t switch within the given time,
and yup, my sastera journey started,
so yup, had t familiarise myself with sastera terms,
andd here, im really gonna thank cikgu Fuad,
for menahan-ing all my kerenah haha like too much laughter,
andd all the selenger things that ive done,
terima kasih banyak-banyak cikgu, dan semoga berjaya with your new career (:
andd haha i failed my karangan for promos sebab salah makna (:
tapi, Insya-Allah tidaklah lagi, yup!
and the result of o level results, haha,
i was so well, i was yes la scared and i didnt really wanna go school early,
cuz i didnt want t really bump into any teachers,
so i made my way there kinda just in time case?
and yes, i rmb looking at my slip, i saw a b3,
shocked t see it was Eng. lit, yes disappointed of course,
cuz well, ill admit, i expected an a1, esp. after prelims results,
but well, that's okay, others were good, Alhamdullilah (:
andd haha posting results, i was afraid i wouldnt get posted t nj,
despite the many assurances that i get, so i decided t stay home,
and check my results online, haha yes,
andd when the system opened, i checked and haha yes, overjoyed,
Alhamdullilah, i stayed (:
and no, i didnt go t school on that day, haha.
and it was in jc when i became more Melayu and really really,
increasingly involved in Melayu stuff,
and at first i thought i was gonna take a step back in jc and just be a member,
but haha ended up running for MLDDS exco andd haha aite!
ill admit that secretary wasnt what that i ran for,
but after the interview, i was hoping that ill get that post,
despite saying at the interview that "personally i dont like that post",
somewhere along that line, but haha, hearts change (:
Alhamdullilah (:
and of course, PW (:
me and my insistence that we shouldnt have meetings on Sunday, haha,
"no, dont have meeting on Sunday.
Sunday is family day"
haha alright, i really did say it, andd so we dont really have meetings on Sunday,
haha and i love Ms Vignesh, she's so hilarious and nice, Alhamdullilah,
trademark la she.
'i think...'
and she'd go like 'what, you think, you mean you dont think before this?'
haha dangg, you gotta get her for your teacher (:
and of course, my pw mates, awesome la,
kudos kudos: Aloysius, Qi Qi, Cecilia and Phoon Yu :D
i really gotta thank you all for being so understanding,
yes cuz i was having bahas competition so pw got pretty taxing,
andd i couldnt really go for stuff but yes, they are so nice and understanding,
THANKS ALOT OKAY :D
and yup, we did on online gaming, haha nice nice,
a good experience, but one which i wouldnt wanna go through again,
hahahaha okayy!
andd of course, SMYC (:
i really, honestly, frankly do love the camp so much that im missing it,
well you can say it's not the normal camps that you go to,
the bond is really there andd i miss smyc-ers (:
thanks for all the really, really good memories :D
i can go on and on about this, but haha well.
and napha, 15.6 mins, fastest ever, haha
okay im lousy at 2.4 so yup (:
andd took it quite late in the year,
cuz of the freak accident yes,
okay it's no laughing matter but haha,
i twisted my kneecap when i sat on the bus,
yes it's a wonder, i dont know how it went like,
buut yes, i had t wear the kneeguard for weeks andd,
postponed napha, but well, haha i did good i think,
and yes napha brings me to Mr.Loh, he'll be missed.
the 5 late dragon boaters are already placed next t each other,
and well, ill miss Mr. Loh, he was super nice and caring,
and well, i kinda rmb the time when i started laughing during his pe lesson,
cuz well, it was basketball module and i just thought that,
they should wear helmets t be safe cuz the balls will bounce in the air,
andd well, Mr. Loh was puzzled by me andd haha it was funny,
good memories, and his passing is well, unexpected,
but yup, yang pergi takkan kembali.
my family, good (:
haha aite, and Insya-Allah all will be good :D
hmmm,
i guess that's it yup,
it's been panjang berlebar,
haha thank you if youve read all the way.
and before i end of course, i'd like t say all my thank yous.
firstly, thank God, Alhamdullilah,
to have let me see till this day, and im still alive on this earth,
to be able t wake up every morning and see the day and night,
Insya-Allah, umur panjang and kami diredhai selalu (:
and thank you t everyone, yes, im sorry i wont really go into details,
there are too many ppl out there t be thanked and i dont wanna miss out on anyone,
thank you for all that youve done,
and those who have made the year 2007 a really good one for me,
thanks so very much (:
yup and of course,
im really sorry if ive intentionally or unintentionally done wrong t you,
yup, sorry (:
aite!
happy new year, or rather,
happy new beginnings (:
and God willing, may 2008 be a great year for all,
world peace (:
take care!
Wani
1149pm
Monday
Dec31'2007
